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Resting in the sweetness of my Savior’s love in times of difficulty

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Times of difficulty will come. That’s a given in our fallen world. What we do with the difficulty when it comes is telling: Do we trust the Lord’s goodness no matter how we struggle or suffer or do we complain and feel sorry for ourselves?

Our water was turned off today. I thought I had more time to pay it. I had checked our bill as to the turn off date but I obviously misread it. I was planning on paying it tomorrow when we get paid but I was a day short. I was behind, not by choice, but because no matter how I have worked the books, the money just hasn’t been there.

I hate being late on bills. I desire to be a wise and careful steward and so honor the Lord. These last several months have presented so many difficulties that no matter what I do, I can’t catch up. It’s not for a lack of trying. It simply is.

Lamentations 3: 22-23, The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning, great is your faithfulness.

Sometimes difficulties roll wave on wave. It’s been that way for my family for so long now. But every wave upon wave of difficulty is met by wave upon wave of God’s grace. I rest in His love for us.

Struggles are nothing new to me as I am sure they aren’t to many of you. I’ve struggled with my health all of my life. Because of the actions of my father and my husband, I’ve lived in poverty most of my life. I’ve never really had an authority figure in my family who just showed me love. Not my father or mother, not my husband. But God…. Him, I trust. I know that the Lord loves me.

My children and I came out of chaos, abject poverty, abuse, for me there was my husband’s infidelity, and so much heartbreak. We started anew with so little and have had endless setbacks. Sometimes is always breaking or going wrong. Having a new difficulty of some kind is common at this point in our lives. Just in the financial realm, I have needed car repairs, collapsed couches and chairs, bills to catch up on, needed dental work for some of us, and much, much more. My son is probably facing back surgery, my Etsy shop has bottomed out and isn’t bringing in anything, I’ve lost patrons. Lately it’s just a question of what is going to go wrong next.

It’s frustrating but it’s life. Things do go wrong, not just for us but for everyone. But this I know: Our Lord is a good and gracious Father. His kindness knows no end. We may struggle here in this world but the worst a Christian faces here is the worst he will ever face. This brings me such comfort.

I’m going to keep on trying to make money to help my family. I cannot work a job out of the home, my health won’t allow it. But I can keep on trying to find a way to make more through my efforts here and I can keep on trusting and praising God. Trusting Him in the darkness, when we have no clue how we will survive or, at times, even if we will, brings Him glory. I long to be caught up and for things to stop going wrong but even if that never happens, the Lord is worthy of my praise. I’m going to keep on praising God for His faithfulness.

Struggles, difficulties, betrayal, abandonment, or troubles of any kind doesn’t mean the Lord has abandoned us. God’s faithfulness isn’t tied to our comfort in this world. But faithful He is and often that faithfulness results in comfort or provision. But een if it doesn’t, He is still faithful.

That Jesus would die to save such a wretch as I leaves me in tears; that He would provide for our needs also is almost beyond comprehension. His graciousness knows no bounds. Truly, His mercies–in every single way–are new every morning.

Soli Deo Gloria!

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  1. BibleGuy says:

    Hi read your updates. As a disabled guy born with cerebral palsy for His glory see John 9:1-3. See this verse. Concerning this I implored the Lord three times that it might leave me. And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ’s sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong.
    — 2 Corinthians 12:8-10
    I have gone through trials from surgeries to were afterwards it hurt so bad I cried and only a shower would help that was from the last surgery decades ago to the deaths of loved ones including grandma or a kidney stone. Our Lord Himself said we would have tribulation John 16:33 we don’t live our best life as Joel Osteen says. But what everyone of us goes through is temporary one day He will take us home and Jesus is come back take heart my friend.
    God is sovereign over our lives and it’s by His will that say for example I get hit by a bus and die it’s by His will that anything happens to us and it’s for His glory John 9:1-3. We serve a powerful and sovereign God.
    I look forward to the day when all believers and I with my new body and cerebral palsy free legs hear Jesus say BibleGuy run to me and I run up and hug him and every believer From WordPress and Gab.

    I was born early too was told I would die I was in the NICU and baptized in a Catholic hospital doctors thought I would die by by His sovereignty I’m alive.

    I know we’re I’m going and why because the man on the middle cross said I can come. Watch this. Hopefully the link works if not you can see it on my profile on Gab

    1. Thank you for the link to the video. Very powerful. I love Begg (he was in a movie once about a golfer). He’s a wonderful and godly pastor.
      I’m so sorry for all you have suffered, dear friend. I ache over it and yet, I know as you do that there was and is an eternal purpose and you will be greatly rewarded by our Lord for your suffering. God has and certainly is using you for His glory. Keep being a witness online. You are an encouragement to me.
      I’m sorry for my delay in answering you here. My life has been swamped and there’s so much I have to get done every day that I am not able to get to all of it. Too often, it’s my blog and interacting with readers that’s hit hardest.
      Thank you for your heart, BibleGuy. I am proud to count you as a friend. Love in Christ, Anna

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