Times of difficulty will come. That’s a given in our fallen world. What we do with the difficulty when it comes is telling: Do we trust the Lord’s goodness no matter how we struggle or suffer or do we complain and feel sorry for ourselves?
Our water was turned off today. I thought I had more time to pay it. I had checked our bill as to the turn off date but I obviously misread it. I was planning on paying it tomorrow when we get paid but I was a day short. I was behind, not by choice, but because no matter how I have worked the books, the money just hasn’t been there.
I hate being late on bills. I desire to be a wise and careful steward and so honor the Lord. These last several months have presented so many difficulties that no matter what I do, I can’t catch up. It’s not for a lack of trying. It simply is.
Lamentations 3: 22-23, The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning, great is your faithfulness.
Sometimes difficulties roll wave on wave. It’s been that way for my family for so long now. But every wave upon wave of difficulty is met by wave upon wave of God’s grace. I rest in His love for us.
Struggles are nothing new to me as I am sure they aren’t to many of you. I’ve struggled with my health all of my life. Because of the actions of my father and my husband, I’ve lived in poverty most of my life. I’ve never really had an authority figure in my family who just showed me love. Not my father or mother, not my husband. But God…. Him, I trust. I know that the Lord loves me.
My children and I came out of chaos, abject poverty, abuse, for me there was my husband’s infidelity, and so much heartbreak. We started anew with so little and have had endless setbacks. Sometimes is always breaking or going wrong. Having a new difficulty of some kind is common at this point in our lives. Just in the financial realm, I have needed car repairs, collapsed couches and chairs, bills to catch up on, needed dental work for some of us, and much, much more. My son is probably facing back surgery, my Etsy shop has bottomed out and isn’t bringing in anything, I’ve lost patrons. Lately it’s just a question of what is going to go wrong next.
It’s frustrating but it’s life. Things do go wrong, not just for us but for everyone. But this I know: Our Lord is a good and gracious Father. His kindness knows no end. We may struggle here in this world but the worst a Christian faces here is the worst he will ever face. This brings me such comfort.
I’m going to keep on trying to make money to help my family. I cannot work a job out of the home, my health won’t allow it. But I can keep on trying to find a way to make more through my efforts here and I can keep on trusting and praising God. Trusting Him in the darkness, when we have no clue how we will survive or, at times, even if we will, brings Him glory. I long to be caught up and for things to stop going wrong but even if that never happens, the Lord is worthy of my praise. I’m going to keep on praising God for His faithfulness.
Struggles, difficulties, betrayal, abandonment, or troubles of any kind doesn’t mean the Lord has abandoned us. God’s faithfulness isn’t tied to our comfort in this world. But faithful He is and often that faithfulness results in comfort or provision. But een if it doesn’t, He is still faithful.
That Jesus would die to save such a wretch as I leaves me in tears; that He would provide for our needs also is almost beyond comprehension. His graciousness knows no bounds. Truly, His mercies–in every single way–are new every morning.
Soli Deo Gloria!